[ Emotion literature ] thirty -compliance unfinish

Christmas article from final year's begin.
should have a really good Christmas Eve, I was a woman and a fight.
I was prepared to a date. ** The other is a vice president of the company. Now the city is full of company, a vice president is nothing rare, and on trips to the lavatory will casually encounter a few.
** company's cardinal daily cosmetics. They just got a new product agent, find several companies on marketing, advertising, and finally, our company, and they became partners. The name is this week's vice president who is directly responsible for the project, the first time we met, I know I have a trample on him. Woman's intuition in this place basically is further doubt.
several working meals down, he started dating me alone.

others look okay, I see a man's elementary condition is very uncomplicated, first clean, second appearance is not meaningless. The newspaper total, or meet these two conditions. Besides, I am lonely. Loneliness is simply yeah. A single woman, even if it is only work that appears to the eyes of a strong woman, still in my heart is lonely.
mature men and women, the what to do with it after dinner. Everyone knows this. But I was disinclined. I did not hypocritical, neither is my body did not need, but, very simply, I am not willing to so quickly. If it is in the bar, we beverage a little wine,Puma Lazy Insect, taking advantage of the micro-smoked on the bed, the day did not go their next time, that is another matter.
This male, he namely my going associate, I must be thoughtful.
he drove a Buick. Always send me to my house downstairs. He mentioned several times, to sit on my house. I do not agree.
I do not like men to my house.
pull so far a few times, he was a little impatient. This impatience was I aware of, and my heart and he decided the bed as presently as possible. Deep down I am fearful of loneliness, if the body can be used to temporarily retain a man, not a bad idea.
So, on Christmas Eve, we feelingly to eat a good dinner, sitting in luxury Genting restaurant, a delicate side head, panoramic view of the city lights are the two of us even drank wine. I get tipsy feeling fearless, I kicked the shoes, feet, forward his legs all the way up.
he virtually eager to buy the unattached, in the elevator on the fiercely kissed me. This man, I'm not sure I liked him, but no doubt, I need him. We struggle attach, his hand reached into my sweater inside. I cried softly. May be too long. Not too long and had a man's body embarrassed, I have almost forgotten that even the marrow whom trembling feeling.
We crossed the hall of the Hotel up when a woman came over head, caught off guard, on the rejection of my two ears!
I was beaten unconscious. Woman had grabs my hair, I suddenly screeched. That scene, I think of it all feel very embarrassed of themselves. I was pulling her down to the floor, she continued to beat me.
I listen her call me, I immediately understood how it was. Instant, the amount of the Bay. Days. His aging mom and mutton have not ingest it, which get into a Grievance come? ! I moved hard and hit the body of a woman, so she blow up immediately at speedy speed mercilessly her two ears. She cries together. Hair disheveled.

really comic. Two of us, no, three of us coming from, one minute before the face of efforts to uphold fabricated with the aesthetic, but at the moment played out in the most vulgar vicinity alley scene!
woman down the lobby of the Christmas tree, grasped on to those lights hit me, I take a step behind, grabs a woman vice president Zhou's hand, the hands of struggling, mocked. Then they both faded in the circulation with the cup gate.
I furnish to stand for two minutes. Through the glass floor of the hall, I saw my hair horrendous shambles. So, I took out a comb, the comb them carefully natty up. Giving her a pony, tears streaming down Wow.
I knelt down, covering her face frankly wept. Cried enough, determined to stand up and go family. Stood up, found not distant away from me stood a man, he was calmly seeing at me. Very interesting for seeing a movie, so that no face expressionless.
I glared at him.
To watch should also be a woman.
I cornered to go, he spoke of the
I did not attach to him.
I do not need paper towels. My self-esteem and proud in just the last moment been trampled to pieces,Puma Future Cat LO Engine, I need people's indifference. He happens to notice me. I do hate him.
me a taxi home. Bath. Shampoo. Then wore in pajamas lying on the floor of the living room, smoking.

This is my life, one of the most monumental Christmas Eve.
I thought I would be with a man, lying on a bed together, and embrace and kiss, love as many as feasible to proceed doing until the dawn come.
often been attempted to introduce me to the thing. They reminded me that taking convenience of the still youth, and fast detect the right married. And then go on ... ...
so if they swallowed the rest of the throat. Means that the seriousness they do not say that I should understand.
their so-called right, and I obediently to see this too.
usually in a small canteen, sitting opposite a man, or a bald or slightly convex with a small pot, I am too old too be, but also outsiders. There is a man, bubble eye fish, five short stature, a mouth between his teeth to reveal a shattered pork, he naturally asked me, you are B or C, D should be less than it.
I froze for a long time, they would understand what he said Han. So elected up the cup, the coffee spilled all above his greasy hair.

node once again I thought approximately matrimony, but if this is the matrimony, I gave up the idea better. Speak. This marriage thing, I have had. I know how it was all about. I practice enough, so it lost.
solitary Dehen up, I will recall the elapse. I like a dream That concise marriage. I have really have had a double bed, lying on the sense of the word of a pair, one of them is me. Chen Liang
my ex-husband, then I like to call him, feed. A naive spoiled the intonation. That is the sweetest wedding in the most Erbinsimo while it has the prerogative. I am 21 years old, he was twenty-two. He is a good small man. He and I together, only a small man. He grew up, left me.
He is my alumni. Fellow. In the year of graduation, we suddenly love them, and then quickly love devotion, both to stay after graduation in the provincial chief, quickly married.
poor. Time. He is often jobless. However, because still in love with, so everything seems insignificant. We often yearn in bed at night. Bed is actually very small. Liang went to great lengths, carry a good few cement bricks upstairs, and bed stood, and then put on the lumber, a small bed suddenly becomes a spacious double bed. He said, bed. Our home is the only luxury. It occupies half of our bedroom. Chen Liang is very proud, he promised me that after I make a larger bed to sleep better.
his slip of the tongue.
he has another woman.
It was a year-old than my old old woman. At that time I was twenty three years old, that 28 is an unimaginable age. So old, how do?
woman of his colleagues. *** Husband is an engineer company, year after year was not at home. It is said, began as a mend broken water pipes, hand-held motionless on the break, and accordingly came up with feelings, resulting in adultery.
they good for 6 months before I learned the truth. It is because I have not found a good six months, they only presumptuous up. At that time I googled naive, know where life is actually like a face of the show.

woman birthday, Liang took her to dinner, we often go to a fish shop. Things so smart, that day, I just fish repository and several colleagues to dinner. Fond, a team of us sitting in the hall, warm to speak with other anthems would go where K good. Then, afterward to the box door opened, everybody, watch my husband with her arm around dissimilar woman came out.
reprehend blame too young, no experience, just scared pearly face, it looks like the wrong things that person is me. I lost face.
I even asked him and stammered,
you see. We both still children. Do not know the scene is a little resourcefulness needful means.


I am a man back home. Mind went vacant. No one told me, marriage is no guarantee that it is actually a lifetime of love and happiness. I not thought he would have another woman Liang. I have a little sense of crisis at all. I always thought, we are just beginning. We all just stepped on the starting line.
I was seriously thought, if an accident were late, when we have a tired marriage, the first of each other have lost the freshness, I might tolerate down. Or, have a child between us, because this child, we can not lightly say a divorce, now, I may also have a wife birthright.
course, these are if the.
in fact I insisted on a divorce. I pressed him endlessly, the woman, where she was better than me? He refused to shun the response. Middle of the night, I sat up grabbing his pajamas on, an ominous tone asked, br> This is really the reply to most hurt people. I suddenly could not speak. I got up to package raiment, think of these clothes are beautiful because he said only to buy down, ran hard to take the scissors tear. He came to argue me, pull me, I cut to put up,

Thus, marriage in the absnece of.
nothing to him. In truth, we do not have anything. One o'clock meager savings, the house is rented. In addition to the bed.
I insisted on removing him to bed. He refused. Downstairs had a accumulation of beer bottles old man, waving at me to let him up, I asked him, said, It took hard work.
He looked at me trying to get that look like the decide I was not crazy.
Finally, the bed pushed.
my marriage, until now, only a marriage, but also with the disappearance of the end of the bed.
equitable divorce, the variety of bewildered and unattended, is enough to pedal you crazy a person. I am a zombie-like, repeating the to and from work, dine and sleep the alphabetical program, there is little during the day, at night, do not know how to run. Once there is a person can await, but immediately no more instruction. Every day I panic it grew dark.
learn is that when smoking. Attempt to do me I do not smoke the kind of apprentice who is familiar with the smell of cigarette choking hard cough. On the opposed, I hate it met later. I took a first bite, and immediately fell in love with it.
those days, I most often do, is sitting on the ground smoking. A person.
as now, there is no man. A small house. That the television sound. A lonely woman's breathing.


After the divorce, I met the first man. Is a rich man.
he almost did not dictate any exertion, I put the coax on the bed.
on him, I really appreciate the ###### of the most beautiful. Past pamper in ######, it is because Liang-like. He likes I like. He held me when I entered, I have loved the feeling, that feeling because the body is in near contact and feel real. In addition to this, I actually did not feel more ######ual pleasure.

this millionaire man, is my boss. I'm not sure how long his attention to me, but my first time in empty office sigh, he pushed open the office door.
his four-year-old. For men, it is the best age. But for me, he really is a bit old age a morsel. Young and childish, I just thankful a good lad, always thought that behind three-year-old and we are two different globes.
Usually he and I basically no contact, except for the occasional run in the corporation, or in the company's normal meeting to hear to lecture him sternly, he and I have no crossing.
office romance he had a menial wife. Like the same old mother dutifully serving him and his son. He has some ###### slander, at the end of the day, have had some money, and also look so good, dignified, it is unavoidable bees and butterflies.
time I feel those butterflies bee ah, is a group of shameless scum. Later came to understand, people smarter than me each, I familiar with it than the unspoken rules of society.
I cried a lot.
fact,Puma First Round, then divorced fjust aboutme time. Should not be so blatantly crying. But that day is my birthday. I am 23. Others might just love this age, kicked off, but I have completed a marriage, before the end of half in advance.
he gently grabbed me. I looked up to see him. He gently Wenqu my tears. Very patiently, and looked very affectionate. I unwittingly by the Zhonghuo, began to try to react to him. He was encouraged, becomes warm up. Even the old man again in a little while, but also remember to be patient to wait for a woman's passion slowly amplifying.
he gives me is a current feeling almost a little wondered. I knew the original, ###### thing, and not only to permit a man to be cheerful, but to get a man to make a woman happy.
likened with him, look how naive hair Liang jump. He's only taking into account only their own happiness.
No, no. Maybe I say he is wrong.
I was again thought he had been in love with that than I am on a year-old woman, should also be to the savor of her body, I did not get that kind here Hearty sweet.
Or, we did not have time to grow better with each other, could not wait to let go of each other's hands.
from my employer, I quit her job.
he rented a house for me. Old educate. This plot. In fact, life on a annual basis, that is, those most old-fashioned story.

I loved him. About because I was small cause. Or, I do not know how to do sweetheart. I do not know how to. Only know how and so on. I sincerely put their feelings, daily stroll shopping malls, beauty salons and out, from the evening began waiting for him. He may come, may not come.
those nights he does not come, my time is necessity in the horizon sent. I love to go emotional bbs. Here is the most frustrated person. Others frustrated me solace. It turned out that the world is not the only one who lost love. Some people are very philosophical to say that life is constantly lost, continuous way.
I am deeply that it does.
old man's adore for me in marriage by grief had become faint. He said that if you feel bored, and went to play mahjong.
He loves to play mahjong. March Flower Hotel in the treaty of a long pendulum with automatic mahjong machine suite. He explained to me, in fact, there is not much he truly likes, but playing mahjong can make more friends. I have been a few times he took
. Friends are different for each of the hemp. Sometimes he told me about their identity, a certain company's executives, or a decisive sector of the main governors. I saw him clearly command, and to break out of the house, he snapped to look at, cover card, others boast licensing technology,Puma Speed Cat Shoes, and how to top card.
which he taught me. Card can not be easily glue out. He is the atmosphere, is the relationship. Not limited to triumphing or losing the point.

I was also often bring their friends to play mahjong.
supermarkets in the area I met a young woman. I watch her fall butme time, like good looks, temperament slightly cold.
I would like to make some friends. So, once again flee into in the supermarket, I told her to take a little alteration.
so. We became friends.
she called the Little USA. To work in a nearby bank. One day only a half-day classes, contract workers, to do front, pitiful wages. She lived in the area too long, know many neighbors, so, take the child got enough of the brand, we are often a play mahjong.
my old man occasionally stay with me, at dinner, talking about the lovely little chip Luo, amused everyone laugh.
time, I am happy.
until one day, I went back home, was originally supposed to stay a week, but quickly, I ran away also wildly back. I can not stand his mother tears and nagging, my marriage and divorce are so sudden, so she frightened aged infinite.
I simulate in a little while to purchase a night ticket. I arrived at the old man to establish the Golden House, the sky is already bright and microscopic.
I opened the door to see my old man was lying on my girlfriend just make a small United States who, strong and rhythmic in and out of. Heard the door ring, they both come back to. We Three eyes tangled together.

I feel very sad. I had a small man, he betrayed me. I just harvested an old man, a flash, he betrayed me.
wildly crazy brain rush I go with my bag hard to pound this Gounan Nv.
anxious old man, a throw to me, I turn toward the little beauty, lull down a small United States, she said,
flat road conditions fall butme women, they work step by step, love, marriage, kid.
there are many unfortunate woman, may, like me comprised in a divorce. In addition to a marriage left us an indelible pain and humiliation, a divorced woman's identity, if only anything another.

left the old man, I get nothing up.
my girlfriends always said I silly. She said I should ask the old man points at least compensation.
This is my girlfriends to find a new job after the meet, we are colleagues. A new real possession to sell the house in Wing.
we are needy, a lease a small two-room, six hundred yuan per share lease. Area fairly neat, the house is very comfortable. Six hundred. I calculate expensive. But girlfriends taught me, you will meet more and better after a man, you live, make sure their position to you. Is removed from the base of society without inflow of difficulty in the struggling people, or gracefully approve the award of life, and strive to be happy to make their own unlimited potential future stock.
She said that now the man, very clever, and very realistic. Love can not be carried away in their minds already. Interest is their repeated attention. Love and marriage, how much they invest, they thought to be more than double the return.
girlfriends name Xiaming Ou.
Our friendship has continued to the present.
now, we have had some savings, thin with elegance, the only distinction is that she married. And I was a person.


dawn, I stood before the narcissism mirror,Cheap Puma Shoes, wash mouth.
what section should work. I erase a little lipstick on out the door.
This is a subtropical metropolis.
nowadays a little rain early in the morning, at the moment up nice, but people feel a bit peppery.
globe more than once I had the idea to leave the city, but nothing but think about it. Heart I love this city. Do not feel cool long cold, a lot of money downtown, but also enough hum.
area I live in the city's new evolution area, a beautiful environment, Hong Kong and Macao copyright panel hanging out N digit of luxury cars.
Xiaou said,
This possibility is also low.
may be old, or else you must blame in this festive air.
I delay them in the memories of the past.
In fact, if a person bored foolish, then, recall the past, sometimes as a good means to pass the time.
I can be on a bus, the bus of the rock, I even thought of my time very far youth.



that time I was a nice girl. The kind of good, almost captious. I have long obsessed with the next class a boy. He was handsome, knowledge is not good, but it is the boys in the head. Many girls secretly like him, fearless, and even stuffed a note into his drawer.
entrance, I could consider a better university, but he secretly asked to report the great West, so also the first choice to fill the West great. This is an mediocre university, but he thought there, and I am happy and satisfied.
Thus, the campus, we are still students. At this period, we had a mini extra than additional relationships, age classmates, fellow. Because these 2 points, we have frequent adjoin among them. He often went apt play poker in our dormitory, and my Sheyou Men philandering. They like him.
me by the same table is an out-of pulchritude, we are too an immature, she has been with a couple of breasts, a walk on the quivering chest. Every night before going to sleep, her preference object to do is to wear underwear small short walk approximately in the dorm. Let us all feel lesser, because this cheap self-esteem, so she was very jealous. Not something is ambitioning to bypass her.
She also does not material, sophomore, she rarely lived in the dormitory, is said to often have a different car at the school door waiting for her.
We all called her slut.
Now think about it, in fact, have a dash of heart envy.
Anyway, I is.
I love the defer could not pull off, so let me tortured. I carries the infinite mind, every day, imagine what you want to declare the beginning of my love for him.
so I did not take operation, he said to me the first initiative, I have one I feed you one. We conceal a small university bush secretly kiss, nervous teeth closed on the teeth.
I queried him, other graduated to obtain married. I thought, this love impregnable, our future one would look.
Then one day, I and my pot of water to fight the same table together. I hit the water, I want to take a bath, she does, use that pot of boiling water laundromat.
Why? I could be muddled at this mad female. We are in the dorm fights bitterly, fiercely Shuaixia her last words,
me at the same table I Shuaixia such a sentence, turned to take the initiative to call my boyfriend called.
just a phone call, she took my love get gone.
dorm sisters are because me the log straight, we come and go hard scolded her. There is a little voice says deeply, Already svelte, then it is more and more heaviness loss down.
until Liang arise.
he is willing to love me, compliant to be pleasing, I appreciate it. All my body and mind are grateful because this is all transferred to him.
I aboveboard thought thin a moment again, this time, I love flower end of the fruit, but the original is just a false downtown scene.


same misdeed, I can not always attract the lesson. I always thought that anything is for a reason, but never thought that love itself is doomed to full break. Other than to harm us, we hurt others.
but do not love a person, it is up to how hard.
I comfort myself, it does not matter, it does not matter, I am still young, I can afford errors.
but a blink of an eye, the thirty of.
wealthy old man to quit the years, I gradually changed jobs, and finally with their own savings to buy now I live in small two-room. Once met an old man in the street, is the Liang colleagues. He looked very surprised, I almost adore that, I always think they are pretty small, whereas not really Aromatic, but with a handsome exterior to describe the aggregate is not over.

but man, I made his day as a very deep analysis, I secondhand to, maybe slight, but with a son Sentimental, not like that long to open the peach. Lips not only peeve rash temples Hu grow small boys. But insufficient to attract the attention of a mature man.
man, I did not remember his label, but between the day we started a new understanding. He Jiaowu to the process. He used a word to depict my past - young.
language I grew up on the large accomplishments have been considerable literature that their compartments. However, the process or for Wu deeply impressed by the students to use adjectives.
he insisted and I commuted phone numbers. Evening they phoned to invite me to dinner.
this point in my life there's three men, all very short-term viewpoint to flash, and this man called Wu to the process, but in the most abrupt human occasionally, and I a good few years after knotted.
at heart, I have been waiting for the start of the second marriage. Time slowly passed, I asked a man getting lower and lower. When older, I increasingly realized that to get a man to fall in love, really hard.
I fell in love with my blog, in addition to each night stroll on the horizon, basically the rest of the time I spent writing blog.
my blog, fairness, or doing very well, and have cautiously elected music, every record is equipped with a beauteous mood of the picture, I am writing is beautiful good, and points already Resentment state of idea, even to attract a lot of readers, blog kicks pretty good.
there are many friends I PM, leaving the phone and Q number, nothing more than that we are alone, you do not accompany the warm invitation to each other.
for ######, I always thought, it is an enhancement of love, I can not dream myself and a strange man, not the slightest feelingful basis to the roll bed. I look inward to, or that yielded ######. If that body does not need, it is disloyal. One after the reclamation of land, how can you not ambition the rain water?

Cheng Wu to appear before those years, my feelings and body are in the skylight period, experienced the feelings of 3 sections, I thought I had a clear sky of love, only 27 I, feel old enough. Wu
I admitted to process the dinner invitation. `Is early autumn, the climate has been roaring at night coolness, Pro out, I mysteriously came back, for a small ruffled skirt. Wu does not know is not really the path said, I have now grown into a mature peach, maintain the peel, chest full, and sometimes look at yourself in the mirror, I suddenly memorized my former glamorous woman at the same table, until the Now, I have the lung power and her par.
entire evening, Wu has been to drive both looked at me warmhearted and affectionately. Even for a moment kept his eyes followed me. It makes me feel elated, expansive feel like a princess.
enough food to eat one repast a few hours, from dusk to dark night, we deliberately talk to, his unique sense of humor every once in a while amused me smile.
He asked me home, insisted me to the door. I fail to blow him, leaning on the door to say bye to him, he nodded like a marquis. I turned around, just to hit the door, he made a sudden lusty altitude to open the door, grabbed my hand tightly to the waist, heaved his foot to kick the door.
I did not respond, he had arrived at my wall, no sweet talk, no premise, he cut my wrap, pulled up my skirt, reckless and fiercely into me.
Cheng Wu to 35, of way, with his wife and children. He is no renouncing this point. He said to me,
I then can not blame him. Why should I blame him. Modern love, I genuinely want to withstand, he will not succeed. He is only seen via my lonely. His desire and my need to faultless to doing in harmony. What they need, this phrase used to describe us, how proper.
he taken the trouble to kiss me, surprised and asked, award.
no promises, if it were not for to coax me happy.

early morning he got up, went to the kitchen to cook gruel. He opened my refrigerator, inside in addition to malt, no anything else. He said, little cheat made me feel warm, could not aid but smile at him.
that scene, I still remember until today.
from our wreck up to now, I was always grateful to him. He did not for me to build a beautiful phantom of happiness, he can not do, he will not be cozy to agree. He can not give, and never said.

a whole day, he did not give me a phone call.
This time, I just enter the dragon. This is a general size of the advertising company, disburse in common, but the work environment is also good, so is earning anything to eat, I was very satisfied.
at home, downstairs to the process discovered the automobile Wu. Upstairs and found him leaning against the door and stood, hands Tizhe Da packet bags, one bag of onion seedlings exposed to long.
saw me, he smiled to.
moment, my eyes wet.
I thought my heart hardened. But the original is because no one is willing to carefully put it to soften.
he brought something to my fridge stuffed full to the verge. He skillfully in the pantry to rinse ardent. I stood back him, feeling trance. My impression of marriage and Chen Liang, little in this moment, we often eat at rapid food appearance the snack bar, favor to play their games against the microcomputer,Puma Shoes Australia, and would not play a pots and pans with the symphony.
Wu has two stores to the process, a rent, an jailed boss does not own, operate the electronics. I knowledgeable from him, only a short time he and colleagues Liang, tired as early as nine to five because of the nailed work patterns, finally quit her job.

Yes.