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35219 2010 年 05 月 01 日 18:03 Reading (loading. ..) Comments (40) Category: Personal Diary
parent Love knows no boundaries
my dear father had left me a whole month!
hoping to write, but as has been immersed in grief, the mood a long time can not be quiet, after all, difficult to write.
should always be remembered March 29, 2010 this day. Night I and the old Ho, Ah-Chung Sheng Kee and others to eat and talk about things Nanchong project, after dinner, about 7 am, and I think I did last night with the home phone, so I go home Yishang Ju call, accurate time is 7:37 pm. Dad answered the phone, not until I began,
puma shoes, he said that his body did not cause illness, the medical report came out today, heart, lung function were no major problems, except the last one out of the brain CT report tomorrow, the doctor that should be no problem, fluid is lost over tomorrow to the hospital, I heard a little after the release of the heart, told him to pay attention to nutrition and exercise after discharge, and then restore the body such as increased body resistance to fight the globulin, Dad Dad said he certainly would, at this point, I just returned home to open the door, he heard the voice of my father asked me if I was playing mahjong and I told him no, he does not believe a little bit and asked what my contract, I told him No sign, in such other manner, he was somewhat disappointed, says with regret something difficult. He changed the subject and her sister talking about the misunderstanding on the 28th of things above, I ask the circumstances of trying to enlighten him, but feel that today's situation is a bit different ever before, every time I advised him before he listen to me very so, can I say this no matter what he always been a bit anxious, just next to Mao Mao was he heard, I took the phone to her so she persuaded one advised, because Mao Mao was able to speak, the elderly will stay happy, be advised for a long time, the effect or not, I will again take over the phone to tell him that he rarely referred to under the Ching Ming Zhu time to worship the ancestors, Yaki-Yaki paper money, with all their offerings, you know, my dad Dad was a materialist, has been not believe this. Dad's last words were \
the mood I was worried father, he again calls to the hairy, let her tease him happy again. I felt very depressed, just eat the most of a bottle of red wine left, I started to drink. Fur collection I did not watch the time line, then check the records, accurate time is 8:11, about 34 minutes on the phone. Mao Mao was cry, and said she particularly bad premonition, a feeling she would want to say, this premonition that will not become a reality.
the rest of the wine drinking I'm so sleepy, then on the sofa in the living room dozed off, which should be in the past, I would sleep until dawn the next day, but I just slept until 11 o'clock we woke up think of tomorrow, we still have to Nanchong, I right again into the room lying in bed trying to fall asleep, do not know why, abnormal heart irritability, in the end will simply be Huangde incredible, I can not, I think the Internet could divert attention, they get out of bed to start the Internet. Has been playing to three points, I think I can not boil, and have to travel early in the morning, he ordered his return to bed, they toss a long time to fall asleep, feeling not long, the phone rang, I picked up a look, is the brother , look at the time of the morning until 5:47, I began to think he was asking me back to Sichuan was not, to then I thought, ah should not be so early, so I get through the first sentence is \Nan called me so early? \As the news of a relationship, then feeling a little Mongolian, started smoking out of bed, slowly dawn, and I was slightly awake, and quickly retreated to Azhong the ticket, and he started early flight back to Chengdu scheduled that day, is 2010 on March 30.
on the plane, I sat in the front just an old couple, seeing the gray-haired old man, I thought of my father's white hair, I shed tears the first drops of tears ... ... the gate has been opened , it will no longer difficult to shut down, bit by bit to become from the line and then into the majestic ... ...
door of the moment, I know his father's body had been away, I can only cry in his old spirit back before long time can not get up. Noon, all the people out to lunch, I left the room and plush, I saw my father left in the bed clothes, I put them in holding in my chest, crying to the speechless, that moment, I knew the human heart, the original really broken ... ...
see my father again at 31 am, when the he was pulled out from the freezer to see his old face that moment, my heart is reduced, the liver is broken, the world collapsed in an instant ... ... kneel at the door, I cried insights into what it meant to see the signs!
4 月 2,
puma future cat, his father's cremation. April 4, his father buried in a dutiful son Hill Cemetery, I will carry with me the brave on the inside, so he is always accompanied and guard my dear, dear father!
4 on 13 May in Shenzhen, my legs swollen, blood rushed to the 110/180 ... ...
Although the sudden departure of
father, but looking back, in fact, has long been warning, in 2009 a year of pulmonary infection caused by a cold father who lived three homes, over years ago, they were discharged, 29 are still drinking to the swelling of Chinese medicine. After New Year, the body seems a good point, but the March 14 evening, my father suddenly syncope, and cast off the two front teeth and people around me was laughing that he did not handsome. Then on March 17, my mother birthday, my father suddenly can not breathe air close to noon, the birthday party did not go in the afternoon was taken to hospital emergency, admission, lost only one solution, and my father suddenly Well, call him the spirit of his old feeling good, in the air feet, loud voices, all the test results say no big problem, had intended to leave the hospital on the 30th, we all thought it was only a short ... ... we bronchitis do not care for him, really bad, I'm so sorry, so sorry! Good self-blame, good self-blame! ! !
father was born in Bohol village Yangjiawan Ziyang, Grandpa called Zhu Mingze, is directly over the following to my Gaozu Fu (that my grandfather's grandfather) grandson home to do, because I no longer descendants Gaozu Fu, facing unrepeatable the risk of hold to keep this grandfather clock incense. To post-adoptive grandfather, married with two daughters, the main house is my grandmother last name was, had a son and two daughters, failed to raise their two daughters, and two-bedroom has no child, so I became a father of three generations of single-pass only child. Gao Zufu this room, though not more fans but it is very Cai, driving a lot of wine workshops, with a large number of houses and fields, leading the local rich man. Once back home with my father, my father, not without pride, pointing to the Yangjiawan the house, said: \
born into a wealthy family, but also three generations of a single pass of the only child, my father became the natural set of thousands of pet in one of the Gongzigeer, but my father was not catching the slightest Wan Ku habits, hearty nature and generosity made him a most welcomed by the \usually good things often come to the house to share, we all do love and worship him, and that the liberation program components, the father reported that the middle peasants, none of them come out against and report.
father was also a great love of the people in mind, he called the Little Grandpa establishing another mother to him very well, allegedly fled after the liberation, but I really miss her father had been, until the old, talking about his time Small Mom, Dad are full of deep feeling.
After the liberation of my father to go to Jianyang
Reading Teachers, Jianyang assigned to secondary schools after graduation, then to Chongqing, Southwest China Teachers College, and after graduation returned to the slips to teach. Young father is tall, handsome, handsome boy is a rare county, until now, to see pictures of his time, no one does not marvel at that time, there could be my father who is so handsome children .
\fighting was particularly fierce, even in the end my dad can not stand, and his colleague and neighbor, Zhang Zhihong drowned himself altogether to discuss! They lingered in the river, river flood a whole night, after all, does not fit their child home after dawn, and at that age, die easily, but to live requires a lot of courage and strong! Even to the point where my father still did not forget my duties as a teacher, still in the teachings of those who rebel child to come home to read, and often said, \May be because this sentence, so my father was beaten into counter-revolutionary, was imprisoned. Vindication of my father out of prison soon and return to school to continue teaching Jianyang, 74 years of teaching are no longer suitable because of retinitis Bureau transferred to industry and transportation, Xinmin Street, our family moved from the support section.
I'm in the raised section of
during elementary school, is the name of the school out of the naughty ghosts, her mother said, the wall is my foot print! Even if this sentence can not be far to describe the skin of my, ah, as well as grade school when the teacher write reviews, just write the words \Although such a naughty, but my father never hit me but rarely called me, my mother sometimes talking, and my father always said \turn the children to play, the result got both parents quarrel, and later still cling to the police station, the father's word can not blame us for two brothers! Doting dad with his little love, propped up our happy childhood, I always think that when we were children although the lack of great material, but our happiness is the child now is far beyond compare!
After moving to raise sections of
mother's body begins to poor, often obstruct the heart, dad around the doctor and tried to treat people the recipe, remember that time need to use a recipe turtles, Dad went to the countryside carried out a raise in the tank, the support for two days to kill, cut open and saw the belly of the eggs have all been formed, and more turtles to lay eggs will later on, let us for a moment regret. But they are not brought the matter to her mother's illness, but some heavier, the most serious one was sent to the St. Paul Medical ditch hospitalized far from home, Medical, developed in the era of traffic to go very convenient. My dad will be allocated using units of his bicycle laden with a 28 lap three of us went to see her children - my brother and I sat in front of the bars, my sister sat behind the rear seat. I remember watching my mother back time, the world light rain, he used a military plastic wrap put our raincoats are built in the following, on the way back, and my father who actually soared on the road with their cars! Two bike you before I compete after a long time, laden with three children's father finally gave up, the man turned to my dad proud of blink, and my father said, grinning, \... ... The warmth of the road with me thirty years, I'll never remember how my father is a cheerful optimism and open-minded ah!
Bureau of the separation of industrial and communications
82 years, my father was assigned to the Industrial Development Bureau, Industrial Development Bureau, we moved to the new building.
to the Industrial Development Bureau shortly after the father was arranged to guide the transformation of paper mills, paper mills far away from home, to live a Tuojiang. One day, my dad wearing a shoe a couple of pounds of holding big carp multiple home from work,
puma shoe, he vividly told us he found the fish in the river, then jump off the fish, the results of the fish catch, shoe has lost one. Family are believed, and respect him very empty-handed catch fish in the river's ability, in the laughter of a family, we enjoy the pleasure of this delicious fish. My father was not to lie and hide, then, later admitted he took the initiative, is lazy and did not want his long walk across the bridge (the bridge is renowned in the country after the 5.12 earthquake, \the river water, red shoes accidentally lost, the fish is on the way back to the market to buy: (
in the Industrial Development Bureau of the years, I entered puberty, with all young people, have a strong rebellion, began to feel my father miserly stingy, old-fashioned and do not understand fashion, and often with his father Ouqi, gradually alienated some with his father, I think, men seem to have grown up along with his father's unfamiliar with it. Did not test well in the examination, the examination of the Chengguan Middle School, certainly did not want to watch the university entrance exam, and my father was also not very anxious, he asked if I wanted the university entrance exam, I said I would like to test, he asked me if I was really I said, really ah, the father said, well, remember our promise, oh. Six months later, my father had returned to school after 10 years, Jianyang, to start coaching. Jianyang Middle School is a century-old national key schools, I, as school children, about half of the high, go to the slips. Just change schools over English test 0 often, performance is not the last in the second class. Also looking for a father to his old colleague to give me in English, to 3 nights per week, half a semester, a one-time increase my ranking of 25, a school of advanced models and backward variable results and progress legend Report of the General Assembly to do in school, my father became a laugh line of the eye, face became bright flower!
High School, I learned to smoke, but very small, day to two, one at around 10:30 at night to sleep after my parents were there at around 11:30 a in the I go to sleep, because I had to learn to plan their schedule to 11:15 every night classes, go to bed at 11:30. I like the clouds that shrouded smoking atmosphere and feeling, it made me look forward to a lot of vision and good, but I do not use their own cigarettes, because every night my dad would put his cigarette on my own here on the coffee table outside the room, every day I can steal 2. One day my father forgot or do not know why there is no other place, the results sent me to the time of smoking, anxious hopping, and finally find butts pumping to meet the past two eloquence, shame! I always thought myself a very confidential so the parents do not know, but was sensible to know, in fact, my father always knew, but did not say, perhaps taking into account the pressure I am learning, learning for a long time now, the smoke in the coffee table , most likely he intended to put.
86 on the eve of college entrance examination, I received a threatening letter, Dad is very nervous with me every day exam over again to pick me up, which is that we will, it is very rare. Later, I was admitted to a college to do so, Dad abnormal happy, telling everyone that \worry ah!
University, 4 years, I seem to be possessed, do not know what they're doing, really is a lot of trouble for parents, schools Yitang Tang's to seek the Caiyuan Zhang, Zhong Shuji, Director Yang intercede, his face full of shame and the rigid inner smile ... ... although they are certainly worried, worried and even angry, but they know I grew up, but did not blame me, just ask me how to think of one? Or was that me, you even lost ... ...
90 years out of school, I'm going to Shenzhen, my father very much support, and to borrow the words of my \relative to live with day and night, that all things after 11 years!
Road, Shenzhen is not good to go, a full 10 years, I can not pick them come and see, while the annual New Year I have tried to go back, but after a short time together, were a long time, I gradually felt that I Parents really old! One year in particular, home for Spring Festival, and my father had just moved a surgery, I feel he's old and frail in particular, the family went out to play He did not accompany the spirit, and often fall asleep on the sofa, people particularly worried. After that year, my New Year back home, they rarely touch with classmates and friends, taking as much time with them because I know I do for them it is too small! Until 2000, I married the first time they come to Shenzhen for a week, something more to say back to Sichuan.
2001, the birth of the baby Zhu is God gave us the greatest gift Yeliang, 5,6 months, my parents came to Shenzhen to help me excitedly with children, the father with his cage and the birds children, mothers carrying children in Sichuan back popular bamboo basket, for fear of rolling into the hands of a child, my mom used cloth around the basket all bind up our wounds again thin.
how it was a pleasure and a warm time ah! Father and mother holding a child early in the morning to go out training, began after the sea or to the park, then they feel in good spirits, simply walked universal Park, home to know the whole world has 7,8 kilometers park ah! Exercise to 9,10 o'clock to go home and rest, keeping under the home, more than a minute nap after lunch, they usually wake up to the garden clubs, health Mahjong playing mothers, father game of chess, is a family dinner the happiest time of my parents heartache unitary children, always do a lot of dishes, vegetables plus, Dad always drink two glasses, I can not make him drink liquor, then to drink wine - Rice Wine , Hua Diao wine can be drunk to be opened, and dad could drink 2,3 cup, I can only drink the rest, and the result is that in just a few months, my weight soared, more than fast 200 pounds, and never ever did not come down, but I really cherish the years that, in Shenzhen, wandering for years, I have not felt so at home is my parents let me get back the feeling of home, let me Tashi and the warm feel abnormal, I finally understand the old saying goes: there is an old house, a treasure!
Zhu careful in their care of the baby to grow quickly, my mother, but a master with children, my brother's child a child does not eat, be thin, so my mom took half the summer, the results of full age, he is now the most fat guy! 8 months old, Zhu baby starts learning to walk, a month later, she learned to walk, 1 year old, she learned to speak. Shenzhen, where many have left footprints in our happiness: Fairy Lake, Lotus Mountain,
puma women shoes, Waterfront Park Management Office ... ... there are times to Zhuhai elderly community organizations to play, staged a tour around the island of Macau, which is around a boat around Macau circle, and my father came back telling everyone that went to Macau,
puma sneakers, and made all kind of envy of others.
01 after the Spring Festival, Zhu baby was taken to her grandmother, parents homesick, 4 months, they return to Sichuan. In Shenzhen this year, my father, cheerful and generous personality so he quickly made many friends, which have a friend put together a bird has to keep in touch with him, my father often linked back to Sichuan after the elderly specifically chose the two birds in Sichuan, sent him over.
04 years I moved to the Lo Wu, then the parents again in November specifically to see new home in Shenzhen for the winter. Although the new home bigger houses and more beautiful community, but when my parents first came to is not well adapted, mostly because the area of Guangdong and Hong Kong people, the language barrier a little bit, but soon, and my father with his optimist open character of the situation has become very popular area for the elderly, even the management at all like his old young girl, a very affectionate arm to see him walking his talk, and made my mother on one side Mengchi Dry vinegar:) At that time, community everywhere filled with hearty laughter of my father and chic beautiful white hair!
more dependent on the older father, mother, all to the father as the center, but the old man was also concerned about international and domestic events, it is his habit of a lifetime, look at Phoenix Satellite TV and central 4, in particular, concerned about Taiwan situation on the island, this is still with me as similar, it seems really father and son concentric ah! (I wrote this when the Phoenix just to demand \
as he has been concerned about current events,
puma ferrari, like the elderly, although old, but has a heart the times, bought a cell phone, send text messages around, not Pinyin, only with stroke, a serious one elderly The input program to start and always have typos unskilled, and later very skilled. Once send text messages to his wife a nephew, was the first time made and no inscription, the other side back to ask, \is your uncle! \
become more tolerant father, the more open-minded and old, the elderly play chess has been a very high level down to the later, but others play chess, but never let each other too embarrassing to win one or two Council will generally allow a draw or deliberately lost One Council, met regardless of winning or losing, or shamelessly undo comparing people who always take the initiative to fight with your hands, my father used to say a word \The best comments.
Emotion father is more a love of people, filled with Gudaorechang, all life can join together to help others: our mother brought Paul Mu Tang, he has been her support when their old people, we Xinmin Street moved to support section to live, he put our house in Newman Street, gave Ms Tong. Since he is only child, so he's a few of his cousins, especially parents, have as their siblings as their own, their children, but also as their children, care a plus, and sometimes we have got several sisters little unbalanced. Home country of those who deal with relatives, but also unusually warm enthusiasm of those 70's era of economic difficulties, we are three sisters and a long body, rations have been to nervous, but once the country come, and my father have tried to raise a good wine dishes served. Many times, the point in eating a sudden come to the country, which was not prepared their meals, he always let them eat, and made we are always hungry, the results we Fufei the bottom in a long time. Treat their students, and my father is all as her own child, his father's old colleagues know, my father never scolded students, treat them very tolerant, like a, like their elders, or older friends to encourage and guide them, as a result of my dad sessions of the class teacher student ratio is very high talent, the father away, 63 high, 66 high, 71 high as far as possible to the entire class of students to send him, including provincial leaders, prestigious universities, ... ... a lot of senior professors are the white-haired old man, talking about my father, all gratitude mind one bit!
dear father not only to treat family members, students and friends of this, any request for help to treat people try to help. Now the largest real estate developer Jianyang Jianyang richest man called \progress, let him carry her back to Cook, but still gave him the works. Old people like this, regardless of rich and poor, in good faith towards each needs its own help, to mobilize all their resources to do their full capacity to help others!
07 年 3 end of the father in Shenzhen, check out the concurrent symptoms of liver cysts and hypertension, he insisted on going back to Sichuan treatment, I went to see off at the airport, I put them through the hall, watched my father carrying a bucket package, right hand holding my mother, do not hurry do not delay into the security channel ... ... This is what he left me in Shenzhen, the last back, often think of painting the scene, my heart has broken the feeling ... ...
later years, my mother because of severe osteoporosis and a worsening brain atrophy, did not get far from home, can not come in Shenzhen, while more and more dependent on her father, in the end, almost half step are not away from, in order to cure my mother, my father gave up all the love, the birds are not raised, no less than chess, and four doctor seeking drugs, go anywhere Take my mother, my mother dragged upstairs out of breath sometimes, was stopped half-way several times. The imposing appearance of the holding down-my father's mother's picture, the hospital has become more casual family area and a big warm Fa Yuen Street landscape! Young fathers do not do housework, the mother is hard enough, but old, his father made a double compensation, that is my father, a caring and responsible husband, a lifelong devotion to family, I really love you , my dear father! ! !
3 29, that is, the day before my father to go take care of their nanny Miss ZHANG pick them up on the way home in the ankle feet swelling at night, I took out my dad to bring them from Hong Kong \went out and saw the name of my father sitting cross-legged on the bed, Zhang sister asked me how my father, my father said waist pain, Zhang sister rushed to his paint medicine, end of lying down to my father, my father Dad asked her, \>
\everyone around! And he treated, but very thrifty, child though his family was wealthy, expensive for the son, but into the community and experienced the poverty-ridden years, he trained very frugal habits, uncle 78 years retired from the Guizhou sent when he was 4 Bottle Liquor, up to now still have the bottle. Occasional luxury is to the family. Especially in recent years, my career will not ring true, and some problems, he even more frugal, for fear I spend my money to increase the burden and pressure, but he did not know, he more so, the more I self-blame and Jizao , had intended to draw a line this year, they came to Shenzhen to live, but it has never achieved, it all became my lifelong regret, presumably dying father is one of the biggest regret in time, right? ! So my father to myself, to treat their loved ones, colleagues and friends, he also performed extremely self-denial, try not to bother any more, it can not go to ask for help every time, he has a dilemma, it is difficult to say, has caused most of the time are all mom and sister came forward. Help others without asking for, to care for others without asking for anything, which is how today's materialistic upright character and commendable character!
Since then, no Zhu teacher! !
This is my father, an ordinary but noble man, optimistic, cheerful, Huodataiduo, honest, straightforward, universal love the world, is a caring husband, loving father, good teachers, adorable elderly and trusted friends and colleagues entrusted, is a sentient intentional, there is really really love a man!
66 high-class students elegiac couplet accurately sums up his old life:
the Union, \
second line \
scroll reads \
my most dearest father, we will always love you, forever miss you ... ...
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