ck Shen Ke ( 51-60 )

10/30 (2006/10/30)



Hello My appoint is Shen.

Just what you told me.

19 I had.

so.

I have been ill. then good.

off, but the overall repetition.

I've treated.

.. they seem a bit with no use.

I do not want to go another place.

good friends .. you here.

you

can help me I would lose something.


Well .. a man, and a female.

remember how I always feel like a sarcoma Like torture me.

unfair is the memory of the safety of everyone left.

end always left me ..

I want to go

but they can not furnish.

not say too much, then I.

it how I always wail.

tears never seem to flow like finish.

how I always slumber it.

I forget how long it actually slept a good sleep without a.

periodically .. some people back.

I am glad.

but always makes me irrational hatred.

I want revenge.

I want to recover something, such as .. dignity neutral.

as I always like a little animal was dropped .. why.

in the face of those ahead I meditation I have some time still have these asset.

really.

time. I am not happy. .. I can not enjoy the ache for nobody exciting .. quiet ..

now I seems to have no way to adapt himself.

I Haohen it.

desperate ..

back occasionally even in the face of that person and I never can not be genuine the.

I lost the aptitude to tell the truth.

I just want to onset.

pressing I think in front of that hysterical express my anger.

or in appending apt rage I do not understand how apt use dissimilar sentiment overwhelmed me melancholy.

forced to damn me. and aloud effective the fact. make things complicated for people.

like a maniac as the marketplace that do not understand some of their words.

my face distorted by malice, I know how hideous at that moment.

lull down. .. and then detect something else to do so. do posters.

like to express their own .. do not concern how preposterous people are coming back like.

like so as to recover the dignity that point like.

.. actually crazy whether you like.

but I sometimes think ah always regular so I'm afraid.

I know what they are act.

I kept a diary every day by hand .. ah .. ah .. stop prose in the online jot. stop prose.

Sometimes I cry in the diary ..

begging What?

I can not say ..

may sometimes .. my diary told the truth.

I was locked up

I attempt to put the layer of transparent trap dressed in a beautiful little .. the color of blood and then clean and a little confused.

Some people look at me.

not like seeing a small animal like a hair.

Ha ha ha.



thing In the tear I ..

often have a small voice.

quiet like this .. ..

when you listen to




hear me?


Yes ah ..

so you know ..

sequel that has chance so now.


not .. is not adore. not love what ..

I do not love anyone.

including the complexity of what family friendship thing.

I know their is no way to anyone with a.

Do you and a geek not a good reason for you to communicate the purpose of

I just want you to help I ..

help me lose these things ..

I want to poise you want this.

want to siesta. be no point pain in the dream.



please help me.

I can give you money ..

you how many.

Can you help me

How long do I have to go to work

tomorrow .. .. ..

to go to work the day after morrow. has been on ..

I work at a pharmaceutical company ..

does not look like it?

Yes ah Oh my friends say.

for how long?

Can the sooner the better.

there are a lot of things waiting for me to do ..

me. .. well .. my father a lot of people.

and I said a lot of words ..

a lot of things waiting for me to do

I can not let any one person and then I dissatisfied.

is not?


in the end how long it

If you can immediately heal quickly I

I can promise you everything.

really.

I will not lie to strangers.

never.
on children (2006/11/03)

my surround of friends There are several old man old madam.
You call it pathetic.
I like chess and painful.
you Yijingyizha see me tea.
nostril I smile with woe the small wrinkles.
your tongue to frown.
I hear to music you always suspected it boring.
I occasionally see black and white movie that bored you.

you and your husband have trouble when I sat next to touch your back, listen to you Ganhao look dignified.
even now the human next in discerning you. Expression of discomfort.

I reception durability patience to accompany you shopping, until you finally buy a couple of shoes satisfaction.
time you visit a street, took to the streets this year than I must buy things as their time together many longer.

you even go to toilet to force plucked me to accompany.

I always want more for you to laugh, to show friendship.
you very impolite to ask me giggle out noisy what.

you fall into a lot of you tell me the secret I can not ask do not want to hear.
you fall into a lot of human differentiate me the mysterious I can not ask do not want to hear.

you like KTV and night I go with friends who you melodrama.
You look a little elated to dress those suits Xipixiaolian man, this is my sister. Beautiful it is not quite personal.
you like and do not they open some funny jokes,Womens Lacoste Shoes New, wailing.
then said solemnly whispered point that you have a child yet.

you always excitement.
then strange standing next to me did not accompany you incited.
excitement waiting for you after, they began to preach to me.

you say kids, what and against themselves Yeah.
you child, smiled more hymning. See you smile more than silly.
you children, how to know something, and Hello, everyone amusement.
you say kids, do not always live in their own globe. I is for Hello. You want to pull you play happy.
you say kids, how not to speak to each other. Even if you say bad.
you child. Children child. So solitary. These days, the child is not all that.
then started rubbing my hair.
I said thank you.
I know.

be a little angry today, I suddenly had.
poke your hand.


who is a child.


if I did not drink your milk.
If fact, we did not how near.

Please do not flood and then the kind of loving euthanasia of the nervous intonation.
call me for the children.


I do not rely on who.
who is not spoiled.
who asked to not tearful over sugarplum.
nor any strangers impolite.

26 of you.
you than me.
you have a small happy kin, have a two year antique son.
little freckles on your face you always guess it does not look good I solace you say that freckles very female.

you wear colorful most of the time in the mirror.
I always black line of clothing, you really boring.
dining snacks to work beside you to help you duplicate my papers lonely drugs.



to what.

in the end who is a child. 11 / 8 (2006/11/08)

fairy that last ten seconds of 2005, we oaths completely reversed.
may be the right way, the results of 2006 bad year.
playing a comb on the phone I rushed her music,Lacoste Shua Lace Shoes, it instantly had 2007. Turned upside down.
we want to convey. I do not trust there would be no more trouble damaging thing.

I am convinced that 2006 is bad I took my poor little fairy.
must be joined back.

So while today's breath then achieved cirrhosa Mountain pill companies and several clinics a total of 18 million of the maneuvered unattached time,
I forgot to call several hours of continuous work to approach the pharynx retching ,
about classes on MSN ran to tell fairy task is completed.
cocky finished listening to my little fairy, than I am happy to look.

I really do not handle with those sly customers. If all customers are altogether much like today's so good.
for three months reported plans to the most since the time it according.


transferred to the Ministry of things to medication smoothly than anticipated.
next month to officially transfer the quondam.

Cat T systematized a day before the legendary farewell dinner of a small sink.
drink all linked.
commemorate the end we discovered an important thing.
is in fact the Ministry of medicine sales in Western next door.

so again and again lovely little malt belly, ######y cups, T cat, plush obscene cilia ring,
Bin-Bin too fantasy boxer shorts, the other pieces the bad guys, we is not gone too far.
little sad again and again artificial to tremble. Be beaten in vain Wuxi Zhi meal.

to medicine department in a circle.
overview of the future or be familiar with drugs. Memorize formulas.
first billing. arrange the basis before beginning their
study orthodox Chinese medicine readiness.
familiar kind of savor it.
nice smell.
Even the upstairs auditorium of the small dark dog power equipment over the stopping power of the moralities that grimace in pain are especially lovely today.
also broke its teeth Wang Libian hard mattered pieces of Whiskas feline food brand.


day banquet likewise saw the wife of Master Yin. Master Yin
since I added the enterprise is the best one for me. Salesman.
the beginning that would be, are fearful to open my mistake, not an dares to report to me cooperation plan. Master Yin
only smiles each morn is take a bunch of nailed plans to open one for me.
Chi Chi opened the bad path he drove his mini sheep go to the distress of back and ahead among the storage and returned pills that metropolis clinics.
until I almost familiar, not committed any wrong, Master Yin came on every p.m., while stock bargains gave me medicine bags small chestnut.

Yin Master also thin. Hair gray. Very long eyelashes. Smoking magnificent. 40-year-olds look like 60 years old.
his wife plump, the day over dinner when wearing roseate flounced wear.
a bit grand. Wink wink to my plush Renzhao Xiao.

but admire it.
more than merry ah. Master Yin slender to patronize his wife was fat.
I like the medley.


just switch divisions, afterward the midnoon nap,
can not be soft pillow in Yani's lap, when listening to the voice of her busy keyboarding, while nibbling Yin Master to Royal has a small chestnut.


trembling ING. To the H (2006/11/10)

Do not you think, the variety of naive
never go back.

long time ago I wrote in the diary for you.
H. Some people say I grew up often.
I average just who I no longer cry for a lot of noises.

while growing up means, but it was silent up to accept anything. Who no longer honest, no longer who Taoxintaofei.
is not it?


my phone is lost for a long time, does not want to buy.
your phone number so I lost.
really pate suddenly arose yesterday in a row digit.

people's memories. Will jump grid.


open up the phone number, I started talking and talking.
not take so long to say if a case like.

hear your voice when I had to talk louder.
so you ambition not be heard to cry out about the way I have.

ah I said I do Well you remember I did not give me a call so long ah on Oh I forgot I pushed over to amuse you Yes ah ah, I really had
also Yes that is where you would like you to learn your sister all right there Hey you old tease you do
long high fat how to will what you ah you have the most smart mess Oh I say now ah the body much better, but I'll go to Guangzhou
you what you do over there in the station in Shantou, immediately 4 points of the motorcar to go ah I do not see that I really want you
you do to the additional side I'll give you call it what you called my aboriginal home phone Oh no marvel I can not find ah



primary school.


we have a lot of photo shoot together. Zhang
you sent a photo of our bedroom to the next person.
I was because of this rage, tear the recess of the photos.

you angry tears. My name. I have no reason.
also coldly tell you, I can not take pictures of the future.

then I just think that the newborn belongs to either of us.
how can you so casually mail people.

later how and good.
only remember two people sitting noiselessly Beikaozhuobei chamber floor, glue a picture of the photo to go back.
write every other in the photo on the back of the byname, if there is nauseating.
What kind of permanence.

more than half a day we never quarrel.

you good karma. Results 也好. We are like you. Teachers and classmates.
I have been a loner, not popularity, rendition and poor little lad.
wondered everyone so much identity differences will be every two inseparable.

your sister does not like me.
Then there are times I quarrel with you, you go downstairs to your sister's bedroom is no longer for me.
I sat you on the bed, very angry maddening.
I taboo you to leave me.
You can be my friend.
You can not dream how much I absence you.
I so vexed. So sad.
I put your canvases and pillows are thrown down from the sixth floor.

later.
later forgotten.
only remember that I always cry, you'll forgive me.


I remember we had a group of very naive team.
two of us, with two sister educate, there is a low grade.
XX campus team called the class.

every weekend task is to 1st detach movement
to me and you are responsible for a clinic nurse to pilfer the key.
every time you simulate to be sick and nurses dawdle, I look for opportunities in the back of the keys.
night-time with that key to open the dormitory stairs wharf fetters.
responsible for delays in the two sister school to live the lives of our teachers that floor time, to distract her care.
Low grades in the open air.

all get everyone slipped out after
dormitory,Lacoste Canvas Shoes, was a massive iron gate.
ascended over a full glass slag little low walls,Lacoste Prep CB Shoes, go to a union called the day of park called looking to play a different game.
haphazard poke with your fingers, then do not Gubao An stare us fuss Wa Wade screeching.
Or rent a lot of discs, medium of the night went to the classroom teaching creating Kandie.
before dawn and then lurk back to the dormitory.

We see this as menacing.
and by the time thinks this is absolutely confidential activities.

venture every time we are smug after his final name was forgotten.


Our bedroom was four.
I depend aboard your mattress together.

every day before going to bed, my two little bars from the bed in each hand to clutch on tightly.
then make a wish.

I lie to you that we have to maintain this accustomed.
To the best of friends can do so.
not otherwise wish come true agree.

you Tiantiandexiao. Clenched my hand.
I followed Tiantiandexiao.


time my feet have virtually broken.
tear fractures.
sitting in a wheelchair upon.
I cried and asked you that this is not difficult to see.
you will not ignore me.

you say very seriously. How will it.
how will it.


you still remember us there namely a low-grade, have a twin brother of the girl do.
Li Zijing. Right.

time she also likes to play with you.
the same quarters.
forever go afterward gate to the bedroom and others mention that I am ill.
said I was selfish and abnormal. You are always locked.

you transfer had gone,

I and a classmate of the girl called Guo Kai Li Zijing
called lunch time with the blank high-grade classroom.
Guo her face. Fiercely. With the back of the hand pumping.
did not tell her reason.

course, you do not know it.
and I hammer her just because she is always talking to you.
I do not idea any of my views.
I dislike is that she coated around you. You want to take away from me. Later, Li Zijing

find a few junior tall school girl,
study up on the weekend, will remember I was pushing them to go.
who I casually took a few ears, was shoved to the ground hitting.

It was the only time I fight it.
miserable.

equitable remember not to cry when beaten.
rub the wound at his back to the bedroom when suddenly want you, the tears just fell down.

look. I really was a bad-tempered child.

If you were in, it should be maddening.
over every time I do something, you would like frowning, vocation my name.


few semesters that you left me all of a person.
ignore the instructor. Ignore the students.
been going to night classes ran to call you, and cried, you came back.
not good back to Guangzhou.

think I was that way.
sit on the ground, Wozhehuatong, cried the.
like a little crazy.

until slowly pacify.
Later,Lacoste Shoes 2010, easy to understand the Long Jing.

H. Many years later, I always think, if I did not at that time as dependent on you
,
or if you do not leave me,
perhaps I would not know simple to Long Jing.
Maybe I will not never be separated from areas the difference between friendship and love.

how obsessed I am the pain of these malformations. And feel warm.
never apologized it.


a long time.
I began to learn you do, others will Tiantiandexiao.
occasionally hard to see writings.
mom to the field a phone phone to his dad.

teacher said. This child has changed it.
good clever.


time. We often phantom we look like 20 years old.
then to 2015, we said good to be back to the original school meet.
on around the hangar is good.

H. You say that time we, will not remember this sentence?

H. I am very grateful to come cross you. Until today are.


I have always,Lacoste Arixia FD Shoes, in a memory, when all people, logged in the diary.
including you.