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331384 2007 年 09 月 10 日 13:52 Reading (loading. ..) Comments (0) Category: Personal Diary
Support cigarette lit, a story is over.
one,
day is still a tranquil repeated. Was grinding like a bad CD, because of the damage that one would permanently halt at that place, even if the read head in vain singing, but only the singing over and over again with the lyrics.
Sometimes life is a kind of inertia to maintain, even if you want to change often, or will find that it is only futile efforts, after all, one day, and from the starting point back to the beginning, we have done is only a drawing of a large or small round only.
Second,
I'm used to a person,
alexa mulberry, which used to have maintained a very long time. I used a corner in this city live, work, with a bit indifferent in the face of everything. In the spring sunshine, the lit cigarette, made a nest in the room not waking from hibernation in animals. The air gradually becomes turbid, the hair is also contaminated by the tobacco taste, the smell is who I used to get from the land days,
mulberry handbags, he had gone more and more indifferent in order to keep the memory of those, I chose tobacco.
I think I have become accustomed to solitary walk. As if from my birth, this has been destined to drift, that in my native town to blind fortune authorized living in a summer when my hand touched the mother said, you boy, lives with relay Ma, anxiety in the room ... ...
grow up from time to time I think of him touch my case when the day of bone, and when he said those words look. He is a blind about 40 years old, but there are a pair of hands like a woman, soft without bone, it was a hot summer day, his hand was cool earth and soft. Whites of the eyes of his mostly hidden in the eyelids, to finish the sentence, he seems to want to open their eyes to look at the front of me, but was I broke free,
gucci handbags, I can not stand the kind of creamy cool earth mastery can not stand the terrible pair of eyes, in front of him, I have a feeling of insecurity, so I fled like a break.
mother sent him away, looked at me and sighed, took an early age the comparison you use chopsticks by the top, it seems you are destined to leave us to live. From that moment my fate might start freeze, or is it because the operator blind Bu, I began wandering in the heart planted the seeds.
step by step, from the home of the town, to that city.
I met in that city land days.
fell in love with him,
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fact not to leave, is to flee.
III,
came to this city that moment, I swear I will not drift. I decided to have a few million people in the cities to take root. I started working nine to five in familiar environment, but also to accept the invite different men, and they eat together, chat, or clubbing. Lu countless days later in the shadow of those who began to faint. I said, in order to retain his memory for me, I chose tobacco. Indulge in the numerous night, I dressed in strange clothes, his face with thick makeup, with some of the children hang around, drinking, smoking, time in the morning to return to their residence. Pale to work the next day because the surface removed those CLS. So I looked pale and dejected spirit.
I do not know why Joe fell in love with me. This is what he said. He said he first saw when I felt a pity for involuntary rising from the heart, he told himself, I want to protect her. Why? Perhaps, that is Suyuan it!
Joe told me you love me more than once. He said, you know, I first saw you, so many people, you wear black clothes, his face without any make-up, hair covering his eyes, but I found your eyes While the lazy, But in the moment as a general sharp sword. You just gently sweep at me, but I think you told me a lot of words. I wonder what kind of experience can give a young girl such a look it? Because of my lazy my sharp, because my secret of my indifference, Joe fell in love with me.
Joe me you love me that night, I thought for a long time, or can not remember the first time I saw Joe in the end is when and where.
appears to be no trace of him appeared in my life. Also appears to be no trace, my side of the man, the left one, only he was still there. Just because he has not had left, so I'm very regular appointments with him, as long as he in the city, he would use a variety of excuses invited me to dinner, in fact, he need not bother looking for any excuse, and now I have no first came to the city which need to integrate into the din, so when he invited me to dinner every time when I promised him very smoothly. I also can tolerate his buddy or his foreign clients in China who said I was his GRIL FRIEND. At that time I was politely smile. Joe will be because I am thrilled that he went. He thought I was promised, but in fact I was too lazy to tell it. However, such a long time, and sometimes I would kind of trance, that he really is his girlfriend.
Joe wanted me to quit, he said, a girl like you, why be so pure and bright smile, the moment they can change it so gloomy, you know, tobacco is not for you, then he said a lot of good, such as the skin, the body is not good. He is serious, I absent-minded. I naturally understand. But I can not make a commitment to his request. Although I followed him out on various occasions, although I let him say I was his girlfriend, but I did not mind him to be my lover. It is just a friend. Accounted for in my life can not share too much, and I need tobacco to maintain my thoughts on Miss days, nothing more.
Lu days with me, is the pre-existence of the indebtedness, to repay in this life.
me and his story, there is no right or wrong. But I owe him a lifetime ago, and God to make my life just yet. I used to also he was trampled on my heart, my self-esteem was shattered, my tobacco as partners since then, but I get a lot.
This is a long time before I left he came to understand the truth. I understand this truth, learn to calm. For some time, I think he would feel a little bitter taste bitter raised an, until my mouth. At the same time from the bottom of the bones will feel a cold, then I'd put myself curled up in the quilt, curled into a very small group, Kuangyong out any tears, was the pillow dry.
four,
fact, when I went to the city after the day to see me land.
I can not refuse him, when he saw the sign that I like smiling lips exposed, I know my own escape, but a joke to yourself only, as long as the little man that I Ben would also like to fly him away, whether it is in front of the flames Tachiyama. He stayed in this city for two days, he said to me, girl, you have to carry live, here is more suitable for you.
when he said this, I suddenly have a feeling of the air have been drained, and I know he came here also to make a the break, after all we have of each other's lives and all have been Too many signs, I feel that there is no face to let him escape, and he is a selfish man, this self-esteem is sure to get back to the. Again I can not hate him before the general, because I know that the story is over.
five,
love me again in Joe,
cheap designer handbags, I sent him a short message, I said, get married. I remember the most expensive to the mall ring. Joe then called, he has a slightly trembling voice, he said, is that true, in full bloom?
I said, yes.
he prayed to N times, each time I refused, this time, just habit, no one thought the answer by accident.
really marry me?
true.
he was silent, and said, in full bloom, you love me?
I'm on this serious thought, then said to him seriously.
I love you.
then I repeated it, it seems that these words carved into the bones to normal, I said, I love you.
off the phone, I smiled to myself.
these three words, I have said countless times on terrestrial days, each time you say, I will admit in my heart a little more,
designer handbags replica, yes, I love you, I love you, you are my life My God, my air, my source of joy and sadness ... ...
I love you ... ...
In fact, I know in my heart, I do not love Joe, but Joe I hope I love him, I hope I say it, then I say so well, anyway, just read these words out, and will have feelings that they say it, I play the female lead has done, I let some professional actors performances are also to shame. Today, I just did a re-actors only.
a struggle if it can draw on my feelings a long time period, can make a person feel happy love me, then I say why not? After all, said that after a period of little hard to explain this world, tangled story that leads a person to another person's love.
If it is really love.
lit a cigarette, one end of the story.