text: to cost a small burial
alone with my life, alteration your exhale freely
(1) sequence
another dream.
side, the dark. A deserted. There, the sun, Manyuan blue.
I find the dark side, you over there where the sun approach out to me.
this, that. Underneath a light. From Wang Dan's light. This is an underground corridor. Seems to be the outlet leading to happiness. I slowly waded, attempting to grip your hand, well-being of hand. However, speed up light, bright, flaming pain in his eyes.
doomed to no face a bright hereafter, is preordained no to have a cheerful, I am another behind to my wayward escape the dingy.
buried senseless habit ......
Build a dream fall butme time. Alternatively, a memories.
this season, the bloom season. I only like dreams. This incubus of despair.
(b) of the time I was a product of chance, crisp matters, the end can not be saved.
My name is read-shan, Mo Nian-shan. First grade, they have been raped cousin. Has done a maiden end of an era.
high school sophomore, his father out of trouble, go to the local public security bureau at home and solicited him to help, he promised to help, and may refuse to send our gifts, asked me to accompany him one night, my father,
Collectors, without acquainting coincided to his request. Pain, sweating, and a strange touch. I have some sad closed her eyes. Out the window big duo smokes, swept from the front. This man, and his father is almost the same old. Sheets are white, urban, polluted.
After graduating from institute, base a regular job, this thought tin be relatively settled through life. But his father lying in a automobile chance tin be into the hospital, at home there is a undergoing from polio has broken his leg's mama. Thus began the night with some strange male to meet a number of physical transactions took place. I am always that is nausea and hatred, yet no choice there is no leeway.
I was there twice in a month cut veins experience. Quiet slit wrist blood containers, looking at their rapid pace of outflow, and rapid infiltration and drenched the rug, fashioning a colored spot track, when my heart is always jump fast, feeling his arm on the lives are The vanish of fast and then lying in bed,
Watches Store, quiet ascend out of bed, bleeding and bandaging.
I did not dislike his own feelings. More serious than tobacco and liquor numb my body hurt. I feel despair. I online and a lot of people have said, but I am sure no 1 truly know my despair.
For sample, a friend Wei once said that your typical pseudo-TM petty bourgeoisie, the words inside to write all day, do ai to die, really just to speak about, so much for these words, when will Suddenly quite serious to me that you do not want to TM is a person.
long been indifferent to the body of the run-in, but also the habit of free and effortless behind the departure of dawn. Once again. , Until she met him. I think I will never forget the Y City. Forget where the sun towards the one I won a happy man. I know thatit was connate into this life, the only gift given to me.
(3) has shown signs of life, if not as
07 Nian 12 Yue 26 Hao.
User Name: dark sadness. Password: XXXXXX. Enter the chat room.
one, as with, I was roaming a local chat room. A man's head like a come back.
, he said: One night stand?
I said: En.
He said: Z Guest House to meet tomorrow.
I said: En.
and before all men, and his acquaintance so purposeful.
12 Yue 27 Hao night we met that day, I wear a black dress with a silver belt. He said: read-shan. I said: how do you know? He said: look, there are wearing. He wore a white V-Neck T shirt. He called the garden green. Is the sun's name. And he himself, just like a clean and gentle face, his eyes bright, a smile as warm as green beauties. At that moment I knew that he and additional men not the same. He does not belong to the darkness, we are not the same person in the world.
He took me into the room, I kicked away tall heels, put out mattress that point the only light, faded black dress the body. This quiet and merely darkness wrapped in the night, he suddenly entirely changed the arrival of savage animals favor only. He kept the entry, alternatively solidification, sweating at the same time, I could feel his bones are full of malice erupted. Roar soon for he was paralyzed in my side, I rotated approximately for him a point of a cigarette, he inhaled a huge, pearly to smoke emitted from his jaws, the vapor in the atmosphere, spread. I could feel the great tracts of sadness and grief in his heart, such as erosion, as the spread of the devil. He whispered, that he was in vengeance, because the woman had been hurt before adore, that woman, while he had nobody left him, by with the wealthy ran away. Here, he suddenly silent. Raised his pate and see at me, seriously asked: Why do you must do is such a thing? I standstill a moment to start the arrangement of its capability to the lies. Upon listening this, he was convinced along the world's maximum agreeable eyes of most concern to me looked at me and said: You're a people troubled children. I am sad bowed his head: I'm just a artificial child's face with imitation travel in this world. He said: do not mask, it will only hurt.
, and he begins, one person one. The collision of language I no longer felt lonely. I think he also feels the same course a bar. Otherwise, he would not mention that he spend three days time to prepare the money to wed me, if I am willing to convince his parents that he would, I tricked, he said I was to go to university, and he also promised to afford me through college. Finally, he said: I love you. What a superb imagine of the three words ah, that moment,
Bottega Veneta, as whether the world still, quiet voice of flowers may be heard. As long as I like to coil up his arm, my world, you can turn on a light of love. However, I will eventually belong to the dark. If you see the lights, the odds will be from this.
(4) for the premier time left, he miraculously seemed. Since then, the city stuck to disappear, but have likewise willingly.
dawn, I insisted on leaving. To our respective lives back to the built trail, I calculated from this stranger could be on the 28th night, but the accident had received his call, he said: "Today I go to work, you have been staying in my mind I do not understand Why, I have all, always cerebral about you. "Oh, a long-term were removed from the darkness at the hypocrites, the instinct is no longer to deem that whichever sweet talk. I was in Internet cafes, but masqueraded he casually said that I in the dormitory, comic is the cash enrol over there just published a voice of change for 7 yuan, he said, you are in Internet cafes? I do not adopt, but he has not made any accountability. The next day, he just magically appeared in front of me: "read-shan, read-shan, read-shan." I elected up the palm of his still leftovers of the big bags of edible temperature, looked at him in quiet, his shy smile: " You have not eat it. "He turned a gorgeous, no let me have ample time to smile carved on his heart. I have not spoken to from opening to end. I do not understand how he found me.
people milling on the streets, the lights obscure eclipse of my very long very long, I suddenly felt lonely, a person can not hug himself, I eventually was occupied, but I really favor. Momentarily and Jun outlook, silent v. cotton situation, the city perish from this accommodation, the fortresses antagonists fall completely lost thinking, a detriment, even now there are roads escape, but also from the hack off an escape route, no longer bailing the. I kas long asI and his acquaintance is leap to be a catastrophe, but it a mugging, they are willingly to go all along. As it love insanity, the world is well-known poison, still, lip smiling preferred potion inch of intestinal Cunduan, but also no regrets.
(5) Oh, I can toward the sun to be happy.
12 Yue 29 Hao N, he took me to the city relax, joining that he gave me three New Year's gift. We were shuttling in various specks, happiness and mirth fraught the city in the N fresh air. Along the way, he gave me excellent concern and thoughtful and concern. He will take the bus or when I secondhand my arm to ring a snug space; he would be in my final car, for alarm I would always meet in hands on my head; he would join me for supper, when the absolute not forgetting to my bowl Tim I love the food, he himself was willing to attach me fed up with shrimp to eat, and then at the final Chongni said to me Do not stays wrong, eat like, next time and then take you to eat; he was loath to purchase clothing for himself, but always told me that pretty girls want to give I bought a lot of good clothes; he himself does not like to eat KFC, I have been dragged ate 3 days KFC had relied on; he would be dedicated to activity on my microprocessor is always smiling at me, from time to time as I handed him the water and snacks; he would lose my temper when my disorder is always discreet cajole me, We have the eyes of others seems to be just a uncomplicated pair of well-being of the couple, he called me infant, because he said to me, recognize a lifetime love my palm. I called him uncle. Because of his gentle and caring a little morsel tiny wordy. Has never been used only in the dark come to understand the deep-seated helplessness and solitude, those days make me feel this life, for the first time: So, I can toward the sun to be happy.
New Year's bell sounded, we were crossing from 2007 to 2008, and I seemed to leap from darkness to light, all the dream in common. Like a sorcerer, he took out from back before the same commitment to give me three gifts: The first is a pricey version of Fuwa, the second piece is a
Swiss Army sword, the third piece is his work these years, all the savings: 50000. He said that could have more, but prior to the refurbishment of the house, he was really apologetic and should not be so quickly fitting. At that moment, my tears flow down the din, I go all out crying, and he accepted the opinion that I have been crying to see me after he began to bully me, and he said someone was giving you also happy, to wail what ? Finally, I cried harder, and then I feel that they have b...